Life has been so stressed up. You know, having java assignment during ut sucks.
Really sucks. Rushing here and there. The worst thing is not understanding what I am doing.
Codes and codes.
I hate that I'm falling asleep everytime I do codes or studying for ut. I would always end up getting shock when I wake up. Not having enough rest is the worst thing. I just need more sleep, why is it seems so difficult now?
I really hate the decision of coming into an IT course. I didnt choose this school and course. But why am I in here? Fate I guess. Most of the people here are great, but not the education system.
Thinking and thinking of what can I do to change, for the better. I couldnt answer myself. I guess I have to just accept the truth that I got into this school and I'm already in the second year. Life still goes on. The school doesnt even concern about the stress that are giving to the students and work just keeeeeeeeep piling up. It just sucks, you know.
Nightmares and nightmares every night. What can I do to prevent those? My answer is I don't know. It might be that I've got so stress these few days that I tend to think a lot. Dance practice, tuition, cotton on and school.
I am so tempted to delete this blog and start a new one, a new url. But, I couldn't bear to, too much memories in here. The days where we had so much fun, be it with clique, idiots and friends.
Sometimes I just feel that getting into poly is like getting into another stage of life. One of two people I know are not as nice. But what can I do? Simply nothing. 睁一只眼,闭一只眼。
I need to know life isn't perfect.